being loved, wanted.
being disliked, hated.
Both startles me.
Both confuses me.
Detach me from all of that.
Detach me from my ego
from how I look and the way I walk
from what you see in me
from what you project onto me
from the things you understand.
It bores me
it scares me
it cages me .
I dont find comfort in this zone
anymore.
I wanna be the weirdest I can get
act the strangest I can act
violent
heartbreaking
and broken.
Follow me. Free falling.
See me. Saint and slut.
Find me. Creating and destroying.
Save me.
Join me.
Or leave me the fuck alone.
I want to breathe self
not perception.
.I wanna be all that I am.
Fuck I am too old to pretend to be just one thing.
and too young to pretend that I have figured myself out.
Don't you pretend
after one look through eyes
more tired than your mind
that you fucking have.